BAM Writes Stuff

I think this is going to be a pretty short post, but I want to write it somewhere where I might have a little accountability for my words.

The whole reason I made this website is to push myself into writing more. I don’t know if it’s going to work, but I’m going to try to do a few different things to see if it motivates me. One thing I want to do is make videos where I don’t only vlog, but I take the viewer through the process of creating a story. I have this skill set and I enjoy doing the work, but I’ve never really done it for myself. Well, I have, but there is a complicated story behind that and ultimately it ended up not working out.

Anyway, the writing process takes a long time, and creating videos can also take a long time as well, especially when you want to make something of quality. I’ve been working on this really simple video, and I’m using an outdated camera, and I’ve been moving slower than I should…

The point is I have something in the works that is different, but I have a motivation blocker. I’m constantly distracted by life events and imposter syndrome. I think maybe I have adult ADD, which used to be a thing but somewhere along the way, they added an H and it was never brought up again. I’m definitely bipolar. Except that’s never really stopped me before.

I’m meandering. I tend to do that. I had an ex point it out once, and now I notice it all the time and can’t seem to stop. My point is. Content is hard and stressful and I don’t know how content creators get up every day and do it. I can barely motivate myself to write most days, but my body and mind drive me to do these things constantly. And I do. They just don’t materializer into final products as much as I’d like.

That is changing. I want to make a commitment to myself that all those old stories that never got finished, and all that content that I think of, I’m going to do. For myself. Because I can. And I should. So I will. I think.

And I’m going to start right after I go see Empire Records at the Crest tonight. Happy Rex Manning day everyone.